Song Writing.

I don't know why, but I am having the toughest time trying to write a song. Just one. Just so I can say, "Why yes, I have indeed written a song!" But I just can't. I bought myself a little Moleskin leather bound writing journal, in hopes that it would inspire me, and also because I've seen so many poets walking around with one. I can't remember if I already wrote about the Poetry Slam I went to last week, but in case I didn't, here it is. I went to a Poetry Slam last week. Fancy that! It was great. So much truth in spoken word. It was like music, minus the change in pitch and instruments or really even singing. But it was beautiful. I loved it so much. Anyways, it inspired me a lot, so I bought the little Moleskin at Target, and I've been writing (or at least attempting to) poetry. None of them rhyme. Well, one does, but its four lines and it is awful! I don't know why its so difficult for me to write songs. My friend Brian can whip out songs in minutes. And they're great! He wrote one about Diet Coke in class the other day, and it was completely stuck in my head ALL DAY. Then these other kids in my guitar class presented a song they had written for the class, and they had a couple guitars, and a drum, and it sounded SO great and I was thinking to myself the whole time, "I would totally buy this on iTunes." I want it. I just don't get it. These performers were Freshman. They wrote this killer song that could become really, really popular. I guess try and fail, and repeat are the steps I'll have to take to finally get a song. One day though. Maybe. Why would I have such a big dream to be a rockstar if I couldn't write songs?! For crying out loud.

I have a couple quotes that are my favorite Office quotes that I'd like to share also. Seeing as its Thursday night and The Office is on tonight.

"Kevin... This is a button" -Holly Flax
"And Kevin Jefferson was out chasing a butterfly!" -Dwight Schrute

Why.

I honestly have to ask -- WHY did Elementary school even bother teaching everyone cursive? They told us all, "You need to learn it because you will use it later in life." When? When exactly is that? I use print. I write each letter as an individual, and so do most people I know. Why do we do this? Well, one, its readable. Every time I get a letter in the mail from my either of my grandma's, its in cursive. The letter will take me more or less 10 minutes to decipher. They're never even that long. I hate reading cursive. I have to squint, re read things over and over again, try and figure out is that a T or and L? Is it and E or and R? Come on. I just despise it. If its written nice, it can be beautiful! But the majority of the time, its sloppy, fast, and smudgy. I cannot read it. Elementary school lied to us all. Think about that. It hurts doesn't it. I spent far too much time perfecting my uppercase G's than I needed to. FAR TOO MUCH TIME. 


Curses.

Sasquatch! Music Festival?!

Sasquatch! Music Festival (SMF)

So, I've been hearing a lot of really good things about the SMF. Like how there are SO many bands that come play, and how they are the kind of bands that I like, the not popular ones, but the AMAZING ones. I really want to go to this. Tickets are like 80 bucks though, and I am lacking 80 bucks, because all my money at the time is going to my Disneyland fund.. Also, I would want an extra 100 dollars to buy CD's and Band stuff while I was there. Plus Gas money. I want to go to this. I went totally pro-planner when that Kate Nash concert came up, whats so different about this? Well, the tickets for that concert was only 20 dollars, not 80... And its not in George, Washington. Which is a lot of gas money. I don't see this happening this year.. Maybe next year. That would be fun. That would give me a full year to save, and by then I would have had my license for over a year, so I could drive other people. I could road-trip down with a bunch of friends! Oh yeah. Okay, so all that out loud thinking really helped. See, look where its gotten me! I'm gonna go to Sasquatch next year. Yeahhh! 

New Haircut --- Again.

I'm addicted to getting haircuts. Its just so fun. I love change. This time it didn't get shorter, but just more layered and I got what my mom calls Bieber Bangs but I think they are just cute bangs. Not Biebery at all. I also got it re-dyed teal. KP did it, and it looks spectacular! Here's some pictures!

The Teeth Smirk.

 Average Smile. I look like me mum!
Big eyes and the closed mouth smirk. I do this a lot.

                                            I tried with my glasses but I just think it looks
                                            better without.


Also, my Aunt Lucy introduced me to Adele. She is an amazing singer! I love it! So pretty. I love the songs Rolling in the Deep and Set Fire to the Rain. Such great songs. All of them are amazing! I highly recommend listening to her.

I have to wonder -- do people actually read this, or am I just writing to an unknown oblivion in the middle of internet world where it will never be seen? I don't like that thought. I like to think that I have a few people that read. Oh well. If not, its nice to spill it out into blog formation.

I had a fantastic weekend this weekend. That was a funky sentence. I didn't like it much. But you get the point. My family went out of town, but I stuck around here in Bend because I didn't feel like driving a whole bunch. KP came and stayed with me, on account of, I am far too scared to stay home ALONE at night because you never know when murderers come around, am I right? So she stayed, and we had a great time! We made loads of food, watched The Waitress which you should see if you haven't, and just had a really great time! We made this amazing cake for some friends of ours engagement party. It took two days to create, she did most of the work, but I made little fondant coffee beans as decoration, and they turned out swell.

Isn't it beautiful?! Totally looks professional! 

We stayed up into the late hours of the night creating this thing, even though neither of us are very huge cake fans. Pie is a much better way to go. Juicier, not so sweet, plus it has crust, and crust is amazing. We stayed up so late that by the time we finished every night, we were so deliriously tired that everything was just hilarious. Its great when that happens. Only not when you wake up in the morning and its near impossible to open your eyes. Thats bad news. 

I like typing. It feels great. Flying fingers across this keyboard. Which happens to be getting quite hot due to the fact that I think my computer is over-heating. Shucks. I should close it. 

Au Revoir imaginary readers! I hope you are out there maybe! 

Weirdness!

Okay, so for two and a half years now, my family has been looking to buy a house. We've probably looked at half the houses in this city, which is a lot, made offers on multiple houses, and been generally sick of house hunting, and finally, finally, we got a house. Its a cute little red house, and its close to one of my close friends Maya, and almost across the street from my school. It has a big, fenced back yard which means we'll probably get a little Labradoodle puppy, and I've wanted a dog for a whole 16 years of my life -- which really is all my life. I am so excited. I plan on painting my room white, and having all my furniture be black, white and red. I will have a bulletin board wall, because if you could see the walls of the house we are in now, you would know why. They are covered in photos, drawing, posters, paintings, collages, letters, cool wrappers, and a cheetah snuggie is acting as my curtain for the time being, but I rather like it. I plan on putting up some shelves, that are nailed to the wall. That way I can keep my room cleaner. I can't wait to move. Its a foreclosure, so we'll be moving into it in about a month's time. So soon! This next month will be Hell Month. Packing, having the house inspected, painting rooms and furniture, getting rid of stuff, going to IKEA (again), and in all this time my mom and I have tickets to go to Disneyland in less than a month, and for the whole month of April we are getting another French exchange student named Marine Prallet! I am so excited to meet her, but the poor girl will be smack in the middle of us moving! It will be crazy times. Plus we have loads of puppy research to do. I'll post pictures once I get some! I am so excited! Two and a half years later - The Kennedy's have officially moved to Bend! Hooray!

Step 5 - Check.

So, I've got this rulebook in my mind. More like a guide I suppose.. Not rules. Yes. Lets start over.

So, I've got this guidebook in my mind. It tells me the steps to become a rockstar. Slowly, I am beginning to accomplish them. Here are the steps that I know of so far: 

Step 1. Learn guitar (Also continue learning) - Check

Step 2. Get singing lessons - Check

Step 3. Get over fear of singing in front of people - Check

Step 4. Dye hair - Check! (Teal streaks as well as blonde and brown streaks!)

Step 5. Get ears pierced - Check!! (Got them done today!)

Step 6. Get nosed pierced - Not yet accomplished (NYA) ((Not really for rock-stardom, but more just for fun.))

Step 7. Start writing music - NYA

Step 8. Play music downtown as street musician - NYA (Too cold out.)

Step 9. Post original music on Facebook, MySpace, YouTube - NYA

Step 10. Ask around at coffee shops and little quiet restaurants if I can play live. (I know people who do this!)

Step 11. Keep at all of the above until I begin getting noticed. Then, go for the throat, and grab that rock-stardom and bring it down. Gotta keep trying, eventually, if I work hard enough, its got to happen. 

Kate Nash -- Thank you for all your inspiration. 

Such and such.

I was in the school talent show last night -- My friend Brian McGinnis and I did the song Lucky by Jason Mraz on guitar. It was great, we practiced a lot. Our voices sounded fantastic, and other than the fact that the Tech Crew screwed up the amp before we went on, it wasn't bad. Happy March also!

I'm going to be a rockstar, no doubt about it. Last night I got this feel when I was onstage that was just this amazing adrenaline rush, yet nervous, and anxious, but altogether it was great, and I want that again. I've tried twice now to form bands, first one never even got together once, second one.. Well, we're still together, but we don't know what we're doing. So I decided that I am just going to write my own songs, and then see if I can play in coffee shops downtown and stuff, and play those for now. Also, my two musical idols, Kate Nash and Lily Allen both got famous by posting the songs they wrote on myspace. Producers heard them, and wanted to get them recorded. And so on. Now their famous. I'm thinking I'll just post some stuff around Facebook, I'm not much of a MySpace person, but I've got an ancient account, so I'll post some stuff on there too when I eventually write something. Its a start. I'm taking a Guitar class write now, which is also a song-writing class, so theres another step in the direction of being a Rockstar. Also, I'm taking voice lessons also, so that I can get a wider range and a stronger voice. I've got to be able to belt it out good and strong if I'm going to be famous, right? One day. I can't wait.

I just thought of something, what if 10 years from now I look back on this post (if I'm famous) and I think, wow, I totally achieved my dream! I would be so proud. I want everyone to get their dream! That would be great. I'm constantly lost in my daydreams of performing on a big stage, all this amazing music. I've also sort of learned how to play Piano lately, and I recently learned Ukulele also! I plan on learning Trumpet soon, hopefully Banjo, Saxophone, and Violin also. I love instruments. Oh and Bass. I want to learn Bass. I would say Drums too, but those are just SO big and difficult to transport.

Last weekend I saw the Justin Bieber movie with my friend Danii. Before you go and laugh at me, let me tell you, he worked extremely hard to get where he is today. Do you laugh at me because I'm trying to achieve my dream? It was inspiring actually. It gave me ideas of other ways to get my music out there for people to discover. His voice isn't fake either. He can sing very, very well even without the help of a studio like a lot of modern day pop singers. He is actually talented. Just because his voice hasn't fully matured and he has that dumb feathery haircut, and nearly every girl between the ages of 3-17 swoons at the sight of him, doesn't mean he's a totally freak. He's not bad. Give the whole "Lets make fun of Justin Bieber and we can be cool" thing a rest, okay? You don't have to like him, but you also don't have to make fun of him to be 'cool.' Its rude.