Ponders.

You know how you can ponder something, and that is called pondering? Like pondering your thoughts. Well, I think that a collection of thoughts should be called 'Ponders.' So, here are some recent ponders.

This week is extremely long. Also short. Its already Thursday, and it was just Monday. BUT, so much has happened in this one week, that when I go back and think about it, it almost makes me want to clonk myself on the head and knock myself out. I don't like thinking about how much has gone on. What is it with high school and drama? And friends? And not knowing what to do, until you get so confused and frustrated and angry and sad that you can't even function, and you spend the whole school day just doodling in the back of your notebooks? There is only one plus to that. And that is that some pretty great doodles come from it. Thats it. No body likes being 'confrangrad.' Thats a mix of confused, frustrated, angry and sad all mixed (Pronounced 'Con-frang-rad'). Nobody likes that.

In my opinion, High School can be AWESOME, but also, the most lamest thing ever invented. Most guys just get so full of themselves, with their pants down to their mid-calves, and their t-shirts that would be big on Andre the Giant. And those hats that sit HIGH above their foreheads. Whats up with those? C'mon?! And the girls, goodness gracious!! Honestly, its ridiculous how much we care about what we say, what we wear, who we date, who we're friends with, what kind of music you listen too, how much of one subject you should talk about before it becomes obnoxious (i.e Harry Potter, Kate Nash, Britain), how long we should consider what we say to someone before we actually say it, even though when the time comes, we usually forget what we were going to say, and just improv it. I mean, this can get inCREDibly stressful!

Lately, I've been so stressed (Not for just the above posted reasons, others too) that I have been constantly felt sick. For over a month now! Its not actually anything, but its been bringing me down, and keeping me from getting good sleep, and I'm not even eating as much because I've lost appetite. That is BAD, for Kate Kennedy. Food is my favorite thing, and when I don't have the appetite to eat it, it really can bring down a day. Or when I stay up until 2 am cringing with stomach pains. Thankfully I've been getting better sleep lately, but during the day, things get unpleasant.

I think that the most stressful thing in my life right now is how much I think. I think way to much about what to say to a few people in my life, and what not to say, and what I definitely shouldn't say so I don't get teased, and that really is exhausting. Also, I have to think of what to say to friends. Not all of them of course. I'm not one to fuss over clothes and hair and makeup and what kind of music I listen to very much, so that's good. Besides, everyone knows what kind of music I listen to already. KATE NASH. Also others, but she's my favorite British Buddy. The only thing I really spend my time thinking and stressing over is how to talk to people. Especially adults. I don't ever want to be offensive, and I try to be funny sometimes, and I just have to figure out peoples senses of humor, and if they have one, or if they're sense of humor is just teasing me for what I say. I hate that mostly. It makes me feel like crap. Sure, sarcasm is GREAT. I use it ALL the time, but there is definitely a point where it goes way too far, and thats when it can really make a person feel awful, especially if it comes from an adult you respect and look up too. Even just an adult. It just sucks.

Wow. I kinda poured a lot of crap out into that post.. Sorry about that. I'm debating just deleting it, but it felt great getting it all out. Good luck in your daily lives everyone, I'll post again soon. Maybe later today. Its nice to have my fingers fly across the keyboard letting out every word I can think of. Thanks for following and reading. Love you all!

Bending, Finding, Playing.

1. Knee is OFFICIALLY bendable! Right now on 30 degrees but every Thursday I get to add on another 30 until I have full range of motion -- How SWEET is that? I would say very. But it is SO SORE and stiff from being locked for so long!

2. Journal is FOUND! Apparently I left it at my friend Rae's house... Only I didn't figure that out until 4 weeks later.. Thank goodness it wasn't lost for good though! I missed oh so very much!

3. Playing guitar a lot lately! Bought an electric! Gold Fender with a customized pick guard, and I love it SO MUCH! And I made a sweet strap out of shoelaces for my acoustic :) Its wonderful! Any reccomendations for songs? I could use some!

So, latest news in life -- I reccomend you listen to Sara Bareilles. I just discovered her, and she is the most amazing singer in the world! Top three songs have got to be King of Anything, Gonna Get Over You, and Hold My Heart. Those are from her latest album, Kaleidoscope Heart. Look them up, and you shall fall in love.

My French teacher is a SPAZZ. But absolutely wonderful! We have learned how to say "to suck at" and "the thingy" and all sorts of interesting things. She promises if we make it to French 5, then we will be learning bad words! I can't wait! ;) Or maybe I'll just cheat and look them up. :)

English class the other day. My teacher coughs so hard she pukes. Interesting.. sort of made the class pretty awkward. She didn't spew in class, but ran out with her leaving words being, "I'm going to throw up.... Read chapter 6." Classic English teacher. Mrs. Smith.. Spewy Smith? Eh, thats sort of harsh.. Poor lady. It wasn't even my real english teacher either -- it was a sub! On her first day subbing!

Worst part is the English class reading. The independent classic reading is HORRIBLE. Huck Finn. I do NOT reccomend it. There is no climax whatsoever, and all of Huck's problems get fixed, with absolutely no trouble. Its pointless, boring, and the southern spelling of the words is absolutly impossible to understand! Do not read this if you can help it. Bores you to tears.

I'll try and write more, but due to a LOAD of homework that comes with school, I don't know how often that will be. :| MEH.

Puke.

So yesterday, I was downtown with my friend Nicole, and we were having a swell time! We were walking and talking and decided to go to Cuppa Yo, which is a frozen yogurt shop that is freakin' delicious, and so we walked the long, sweltering hot walk there. Now I know that I was probably getting pretty dehydrated in the hot sun, and wasn't thinking about it then. So then, I had already eaten a HUGE lunch that day. A avacado/chicken sandwich, a bowl of instant oatmeal, and a bagel and a piece of chocolate so I was already freakin' bloated. So then we get to Cuppa Yo, and I can't resist so I get this HUGE thing of FroYo and cover it in toppings of snickers, and heath bar, and strawberries, and rasberries, and chocolate syrup. And I eat ALL of it. And it was BIG. So then we walk all the way BACK to downtown, and I am so full, like its painfully full, and I just kinda wanna throw up so I would feel better, but also not cause barfing is like the thing I am scared of most in the whole world. So we walk through downtown, and get a big thing of water, which I chugged far too fast, and made it all worse. Then I start getting that feeling where you know that you are going to probably throw up, and you feel the sweatyness on your face and you get overly hot, and dizzy, and light headed, and super nauseous, (spelling?!) and knew, I was going to barf. So I'm in the middle of downtown, and I get up real fast and go lean over a tree cause I feel it, and I do a few dry heaves, but nothing come up, and this guy walks past and says "gee, I didn't think I was THAT ugly!" and I didn't hear him but Nicole did. I sure hope he said it jokingly! So I am like FREAKING OUT cause like I said, I HATE barfing with a fiery passion.

So then I finally get my strength back enough to try and stumble to the garbage can on the end of the block. Im like 7 feet away from it and a few big dry heaves come and I cover my mouth with my hand cause I think its about to come up, and some people walking by were like, "uh oh! you can make it!" and like trying to be all supportive. Then I am leaning over the trash can, but nothings coming up, and I am starting to feel a little better, and a girl from my school walks by and says, "Its alright! Everything is gonna be alright!" kinda jokingly like shes trying to make me feel better, and I yell back, "I'll be alright! I just ate way too much!" but the yelling does me no good so I let my head drop back to the garbage. But nothings coming out. Just burps. Lots of them. Finally I feel like I'm not gonna puke, and I sit down against against a tree and try to get my mind to stop spinning, and all the while my friend is just kinda standing there like, "uhh this is so embarrasing.. what am I supposed to do! ahh...!" and I felt so bad! Good grief it was SO embarrasing!! Uhg! Ha ha but it makes a fantastic memory! HAHAHAAHAHA! Stupid food.

FINALLY! A PRANK!!

Oh yes, I have really done it this time. Yesterday, my friend Annie and I were at Old Navy, and I was in a very good mood. My mum and brother were there too, and they are a bit pranksterish too, but mainly just either support, or try not to support but still do support me (MOM!) You know those creepy commercials for Old Navy that have those weird talking maniquins? Well, there was a whole slew of them there in the front of the store. At first, I was just posing with the teenage guy ones as if I had a boyfriend, but then, I found out that their heads could come off quite easily, and soundlessly. And you know, I couldn't just LEAVE knowing that those heads could come off SO EASILY. So, naturally, I had to you know, rearange the heads of that big group of people. The two guys that I pretended were my boyfriends, well, one of their heads went on a little girls body, while that little girls head went on the boyfriends body, and the other guys head, uhh, I actually forgot.. I think it went on another little girls head.. or wait! It was an African American guys head, and it went on a white guys body. I had a BIG ol' head sitting on a little girls body too, and oh my goodness it looked SO funny after the deed had been done! I will probably post pictures soon, but I have to get them off my mum's computer, which right now is shut down! In the morning! I don't think I will be going to school, because I am down with a nasty cold. In fact, I ought to be asleep right now, seeing that it is 12:07 AM, but I woke up and couldn't breathe through my nose, so that obviously isn't going to happen! Sleeping I guess just isn't my thing right now. So I guess blogging will be!