Biggest Fear

After sixteen years of wondering and questioning what my biggest fear is, whether it be spiders, fire, death, barfing, whatever; I finally figured out what it is.

Sound.

Which is also my favorite thing in the world. So it kind of contradicts itself. Seriously though, think about it. Sounds can be horrifying. If you hear a hiss, you think SNAKE and panic, and maybe pee a little. If in the dead of night you hear a creak, and the bathroom door open, and a family member probably just has to relieve themselves, but in your head you think, oh no, what if they are sick?! and start panicking about that too. Well... I doubt you panic about that, but I sure do. Which makes it a terrifying sound. Or just creaks and squawks of the house at night, and you wonder, burglar, or creep? Or murderer. Or could that gurgley sound be maybe a zombie? You just don't know, do you.

Of course, sounds can also be the most wonderful things in the whole world! Like when you hear the oven beep, and you know, the cookies are ready! Or that jolly Ho Ho Ho of Santa! Or birds chirping. Or MUSIC for crying out loud!

Sometimes I just wish I could be deaf, so that I wouldn't have to think about all those horrible things that are sounds, but then I realize that would mean giving up music, and seeing as music is more important to me than food, or people even, I just don't think that would work out very well.

BUT, you can see where I say its my biggest fear. I hate bad noises. Nails on a chalk board, screeching wheels, screaming, barfing, zombies (Heh), murderers and burglars, etc. They are bad noises. That, is why sound is my biggest fear. But also biggest love.

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-kate

Just for Today...

I already posted this on my Facebook, but I really liked it so I decided to post it on here too.

Early in the morning of January 1st, my mom and I sat at the kitchen table, busying ourselves with newspaper comics and chewing our cereal, when my mom stumbled upon a 'Dear Abby' excerpt that she thought really would relate to my life. I read it, and indeed, it did. It isn't an actual letter written by someone to Abby, but just a little something that was in that general 'Dear Abby' corner of the paper. I almost feel like perhaps.. It was written just for me...?

Just for Today: I will live through this day only. I will not brood about yesterday or obsess about tomorrow. I will not set far-reaching goals or try to overcome all of my problems at once. I know that I can do something for 24 hours that would overwhelm me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.

Just for Today: I will be happy. I will not dwell on thoughts that depress me. If my mind fills with cloluds, I will chase them away and fill it with sunshine.

Just for Today: I will accept what is. I will face reality. I will correct those things that I can correct and accept those I cannot.

Just for Today: I will improve my mind. I will read something that requires effort, thought, and concentration. I will not be a mental loafer.

Just for Today: I will make a conscious effort to be agreeable. I will be kind and courteous to those who cross my path, and I'll not speak ill of others. I will improve my appearance, speak softly, and not interrupt when someone else is talking. Just for today, I will refrain from improving anybody but myself.

Just for Today: I will do something positive to improve my health. If I'm a smoker, I'll quit. If I am overweight, I will eat healthfully -- If only just for today. And not only that, I will get off the couch and take a brisk walk, even if it's only around the block.

Just for Today: I will gather the courage to do what is right and take responsibility for my own actions.

I guess I can call these bold things my new years resolutions? But, not all at once. I have the whole of 2011 to work on these, and the rest of my life too, while I'm at it.

Happy New Years my dear friends, may it be fruitful and joyous! I hope we all accomplish something brilliant, and I love you all!

Christmas! Already?

Is it just me, or did it seem like to all you guys that Christmas came extremely fast this year? I'm pretty happy its here and all, but it just seems like it came too fast. It doesn't feel like Christmas this year. I guess it didn't last year either.. Living in Bend and not spending Christmas at our own house ever just makes everything feel different. Not waking up in our own house and sprinting down the stairs to our awaiting tree and stockings is something I just miss a lot. But, of course, it was fun this year too! I gave my parents some really pretty original artwork by Sarah Mikolowsky, and I made my grandparents a shadow box. This year I got a Blue Ukulele, some iTunes gift cards (and not to mention some AWESOME new music!), a gift card to Brian's House of Music in Bend, which means I can go and buy the Teal Electric Acoustic Guitar that I want to badly! Its a folk guitar, so its smaller and fits a smaller person better. The guitar I have now is a tad bit large for me, and harder to play. The folk guitar sounds just like any normal acoustic, but its thinner, and better in general for me! Plus it is polished maple wood, teal coloring, a bit smaller, new strings, glossy, and I can't wait to get it! I shall buy it Monday I think! And I cannot WAIT! Honestly, I just want to get home to Bend now. I'm in the valley now, and its great, but there is a new guitar waiting for me!! Heehee! Plus I got this REALLY cool abominable snowman hat! Its so fluffy!

Choir Concerts

Last Thursday I went to my friend Kaitlin's choir concert. It was extremely long, but she did a great job on her solo. A lot of key changes! I went to that with Kate Plotner, and after, her, Joshua, Kaitlin and I all went to cuppa yo for some delicious soft serve frozen yogurt which was great! Now tonight I'm at the Bend Childrens Choir concert. It's an intermission. I want a nap.