Oh Goodness.

There is something I need to figure out. How to make friends. Of course I have all my school friends who I love, but we don't actually have anything in common, so hanging out outside of school is just awkward. Just sitting around. Then I have one friend who I enjoy hanging out with wherever, but she goes to Bend High, and I go to Summit, so that just doesn't work well. Then I recently made a friend at Summit who is actually like me, and likes guitar, music, art, and all that, but he's a boy. Which is also difficult because in High School, you make friends with a guy and soon they start liking you. I just don't want a boyfriend right now. I want some really good, solid friendships. Maybe one of those good friendships will turn into a relationship, but right now, I just want friends. I make friends with a guy, and I have this gut feeling that he likes me. I'm fine with it. I'm not going to make things awkward or treat him any differently. But I don't want to risk ruining a brand new friendship with a boyfriend. Either things will go really good, or they'll fail right at the start and then BAM, another friendship down the drain. I think next year I'm switching schools to go to Bend High, but I'm waiting for the principals of my school and the other one to approve my application. If thats all approved, then I will be a Lava Bear next year, rather than a Thunder Cat. What even is a Thunder Cat? I really don't know. I want to change schools because I'm ready for a fresh start. Things at Summit just haven't worked out from the first day of Freshman year, till now. Its been nearly two full years and I'm still unhappy at this school. Isn't high school supposed to be fun? I want my last two years to be good. I think BHS is going to offer some stuff to me that Summit never has. There are less cliques, and cliques are what keep getting in my way. Lets leave 'em.

Talk to you later.

xoxo, Kate