I cannot stop thinking about this lately. How badly I want to fall in love and be loved equally in return. I want to hold hands and go on adventures and do everything together and every time I see someone holding hands with someone else and grinning and looking like they are having the time of their lives, my heart just hurts and I know I can't have it and it makes me believe more and more that I am going to be alone forever even though I know I won't be, but it makes me so sad with every passing day. I don't want to be alone anymore. And I'm tired of little flings that have no feeling involved. I just want to fall in love.