The Latest!

So I decided to do something. I wrote myself a letter, addressed to my future self, and I am gonna open it years from now, and then write my next future self another one! And just keep going all my life till the end when I can look back and see all the things that happened through out my life. I am also keeping a journal, but I have been doing that. Its fun to go back and read some of the stupid things that you write. My favorite entry is in kindergarten, "I hate mushrooms." Oh wasn't it great when that was the worst thing that was happening in your life? Being forced to eat your mushrooms. Those were the good old days. But everything is better now. Although lately it seems as if everyone is growing up ahead of me. Its a tad bit annoying. I'm not gonna list all those things, but there are quite a few! Its very annoying. Although, I don't want to grow up all the way and become a serious adult to fast, I do just want to be treated like a 15 year old, not a 7 year old. ;) But I like being a cretin. Its fun. Oh guess what! I am, once again, in Freshman Acadamy typing this up. My teacher gives us assignments that are supposed to last the entire class period, but they are really easy for me (learning word, powerpoint, and excel! :P) and so I just finish them in about 20 minutes then have the rest of the class to just go on the internet, blog, play bubble shooter/uphill rush. Its a great block to just kinda hang out. Its nice just to stop worrying about all the stress of other classes and let it out with a nice game of bubble shooter. That sounds quite lovely. I am not a fan of excel. Nope nope not one little bit. Blech! I wish I had a remote to stop time or fast forward or something like that. But then I remember the movie, Click, and I decide, nope I do not want one of those remotes. That movie made me start crying SO hard at the end. I am not gonna give anything away, but that movie, goodness I just bawl my eyes out. Its so sad! OH MAN! A girl in my class just went out to her locker and came back with cookies and gatorade. And they are not for sharing and I am hungry and that cookie is deliciously huge and looks warm. (drools a little...) I just love food. I am a never ending food disposal. Anything you put in front of me I will eat. Great.

Ouch Charlie.... that really hurts!

Have you seen that video, "Charlie Bit Me?" If not look it up. Its on youtube. Its basically a little boy and his baby brother, and the little baby is named Charlie, and the older brother sticks his finger in Charlies mouth and the boy laughs and pulls it out. Then he does it again, as if he didn't learn the first time, except this time Charlie bites down hard and the little boy is actually in pain.

The first time hurt a little, but it didn't learn its lesson, and it just put themself in that situation again, but the next time actually hurt, and it was harder to get out of this one.

Will it be able to get through this. To persevere through? Will I be able to get through this?

Words hurt.

February 7th

This is an important, VERY important day. Because it is Thea's birthday. Woo!!

Sitting in History

We're done with our history project two days early. YES!!! We as in me and Thea. So, because of our unusually fast knack of finishing stupid history projects, we sat back and relaxed. Well i wouldnt exactly say relaxed. We actually got really stressed out. We played some intense games of bubble shooter (www.bubbleshooter.net) and actually BEAT the game. I bet you didn't think that you could actually beat it, huh? Well guess what buddy, you CAN! And we did. Thea says that she beat it first, but that was just today. I have beat it more times than I could even count. So HA Thea. We decided that not beating bubble shooter is the cause of war. I bet that its also the cause of global warming and world hunger. Thats what I bet. So then to make everything better, we were jamming out to Lily Allen! Oh how I love her music! Especially the songs Flowers and Butterflies (code name), Who'd have known, and Everyone's at it. Those are great songs. Oh and Him. Thats a good one too. Then at the beginning of the class period, like maybe 20 minutes in, I got really bored and texted Annith, and we both got out of our classes and she told me the Mango (its capitalized for a reason!!!) story, and then we saw a cool poster and we wanted to see who made it, but the name was written on the back, and then Annith accidentally tore it off the wall... it was really funny, because then a kid came by and said "Annie what did you do this time?" It was great. But then we found out who made it and it was all good. :) And we saw a picture of Finland, and found out that it looks like a lady with one arm. So that is our new greeting toward each other. It kinda looks like we are mental. But hey, so what?
And another good news for ya! Its all better now. Everything that has to do with Bend, Oregon. Not necesarilly McMinnville stuff, but Bend is good. We are good. I was just making stupid assumptions. I'm sorry for that. Assumptions really stink. Thats probably why they start with "Ass"(umptions). Oh ha ha ha, la de da de da! I cracked myself up! But yeah, me and Annie "went to the bathroom" (got out of boring classes) and you know, time really does fly when your having a good time. Because suddenly 20 minutes went bye... I must've realllllyy had to go to the bathroom. Annie said that I should just tell my teacher that I was having a problem. But you know. 20 minutes? I don't think so. Thankfully, when I walked back in I was reallllly quiet about shutting the door, and the teacher didn't even notice and I got away with it! Phew! Oh! I just could have said that I ate a LOT of food yesterday and thats why I was in the bathroom for so long! ahahahahahhahah!! Actually I spent the day yesterday feeling rather sick. Kinda pukey. But i didn't barf. Phew! Thats like my biggest fear. Like bigger than death. or beetles. Or spiders.
Then Saturday night, Kaitlin spent the night, and they (kaitlin and josephine) spent their time talking to me in my sleep. I guess the first time that I fell asleep, they came up and talked about the most random things. I dont remember nearly any of this, due to the fact that I was asleep, but Kaitlin said that she put her hand on my back and then made it feel like there was a spider crawling up my back, and then i guess i started swating at it. Oh dear me. Then i woke up. Then I fell back asleep and they turned off the light and I guess i really wanted it on, and so as they said it, i got up and then frantically turned on the big light, not just the lamp, then collapsed on Josephines suitcase. I never woke up during this. Apparently, later in the night, I had a really deep conversation with Kaitlin. I only remember what Kaitlin told me I had done. Thats it. But I guess it was really deep. Ha ha ha! I wish I was awake so that I could remember it and talk about it more. Oh dear. Well kaitlin recorded parts of it with her phone. Man, these posts sure do get long!! Well, historys almost over. But I am coming right back here cause I have stupid old freshman acadamy class next. Meh! Byee!

Ever So Confused!

I whip out my phone.
I must tell my friend that something funny has happened.
I scan through my contacts until i reach the name i need.
I press the button.
I begin to type out my message.
But then I remember,
What happened yesterday.
At the mountain.
That awkward conversation.
Just normally talking.
Then a statement that hurt.
Not a bad pain.
Just like a tiny sliver that sticks out.
But its enough to hurt,
When it is sent by one of your best friends.
The conversation just ends with,
"Oh thats unfortunate for you."
"Yepp."
"Sorry about that."
"Yeah..."
And it ends there.
Now its today.
I text her.
But theres no response.
Later i try again.
Nothing.
Again?
Zip.
Eventually I confront the problem striaght up.
But that is after people are telling me that they have been texting back and forth.
Still nothing.
Is her phone dead?
Am I being ignored?
Why is there this tension between friends?
Oh please not again.
I could not go through this again.
Not after the Fall and Winter.
Back home things arent any better.
I go back next weekend.
But I dont know who I will see.
I know I will see the people.
But I don't know if I will really see them, or just shadows of what they were.
Its all changed.
Its all different.
I doesn't need to be.
But one bad choice changed it all.
I am out of the loop.
At the sleepovers.
They converse about people who i have never heard of.
At their school.
And I try and tell them about my friends, that they have never met.
Its like an invisible wall blockaded between us.
We can only really talk about past memories.
And memories can run out.
We can just keep talking about them.
But nothing new has happened.
And now bad memories are attacking and slaughtering the good ones.
Because of that one single bad choice.
Everything will be different when I go back.
And school tomorrow.
How will i confront my friend.
Who hasn't responded.
That doesn't make them a bad person.
No, not at all.
It just leaves me wondering.
What have I done?
I don't recall saying anything offensive.
Am I just too immature for her taste?
Since when was there a race?
Does she want to get wrinkles first?
Too me, i would pass.
I dont see the rush to grow up.
I think.
And think.
But I cant think of anything that i have done.
So i sit in silence.
Staring at my phone.
Nothing.

Josephine!!!

Josephines here! She is the foriegn exchange student that we are hosting for 3 weeks! She came on sunday night and just to let you know, shes AMAZING! Her accent is brilliant, and she speaks very good english! In P.E class today, we were playing Badmitton, and she was REALLY good! And then I was also playing with Riley, Micaela, and Nicole too, and we were laughing a lot! And now Micaela and I, well we are always battling to see who can get out first, since we are playing it rotatingly. Ohh, good word... :D But it was the best P.E class ever! My foot hurt really bad from doing some radical ninja moves down 7 stairs last week, and it still hurts and I might have to go to the doctor! MEH! But I was able to get around my foot and still have a great time! Best class ever! Besides theater arts. Thats a prettttty great class due to the awesome people that are in it! (And their nose blowing dancers... cough cough... you know who you are!!!) WOOT OWOT! But sadly I only have 2 good classes out of all 6 of them. The stupid classes are Math (GAG! Thanks Maya and Annie for rescuing me!!!) and Science, which can be fun, but it depends on the experiment. And then I have history, and there are some fun people in that class (Thea, Hayley, and Maya!!) and we all have a great time calling my History teacher who just grew a beard, "Beardy, Ryan from the Office, or Dundledort, which he thought was Voldemort cause we called him that once too, but he mixed Dumbledore and Voldemort together. I quite like the name Dundledort! Its fun to say! Hahahaha! YAY! Five more minutes of class! Oh yeah, and I have stupid Freshman Acadamy too! Oh YAY, lets learn about TYPING! My FAVORITE subject. Shoot me. This friday the whole lot of my friends and I and Josephine are all going Roller Blading and I am really excited too! Although I will probably fall on my rear a lot. I'll just wear a pillow maybe. Unless Freddy comes. Then I wont. But I don't think he is coming. Loser. Probably scared he will fall on HIS rear. That'd be great. HA. HA. HA. And then Wednesday, we are all coming back to my house then going to the Mr. Thunder pagent, and I am realllly excited for that because I saw the boys dance at the Battle of the Sexes assembly. Ohhh and I had the most amazing conversation via texting with my great friend Kaitlin. I would just call that texting conversation, "Experimentation." If only you could see those texts. I was gonna die laughing. And we were on opposite sides of town. AHHAAHHA.

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter everyone! It's gonna be a great day! And later tonight, Josephine, our French exchange student comes! We are gonna pick her up at the Redmond airport at 9:00!! I am so excited! She is staying for 3 weeks and it gonna be totally awesome! She will shadow me in all my classes and so everything with me! It's going to be so fun!
So two nights ago was the 80's dande at Summit, and it was soooo fun! I got ready with my amaaaazing friends Kaitlin and Maya at my house and then aye cheese fondue followed by chocolate fondue! Then we went to the dance and met up with Annie, Coleman, Rae, Leigha, and Hannah! It was so great! Even though Kaitlin(NEWBIE!!) and Hannah won! Uhg! I came in 3rd and Annie was 4th. It was really funny! Haha! Then after the dance most of is went to Hannah's house for a big fun slumber party, but then we all went upstairs to go to bed, and I got there last, and Hannah already got the top bunk, and Annie and Kaitlin got the bottom, so I decided that I would just sleep on the edge of the bottom bunk at the foot of the bed. But then there was no more blankets so I pulled up a fuzzy rug and covered myself with it but it was small and I had to scrunch up. Then Kaitlin and Annie couldn't stretch their legs out so Annie went to the top bunk with Hannah and I moved to annies spit and we were all good! Oh and at the dance we had the most amazing dance moves for the song TiK ToK! It was preeetyy great! And now it's Easter and this weekend has rocked! Woot owot!