Step 5 - Check.

So, I've got this rulebook in my mind. More like a guide I suppose.. Not rules. Yes. Lets start over.

So, I've got this guidebook in my mind. It tells me the steps to become a rockstar. Slowly, I am beginning to accomplish them. Here are the steps that I know of so far: 

Step 1. Learn guitar (Also continue learning) - Check

Step 2. Get singing lessons - Check

Step 3. Get over fear of singing in front of people - Check

Step 4. Dye hair - Check! (Teal streaks as well as blonde and brown streaks!)

Step 5. Get ears pierced - Check!! (Got them done today!)

Step 6. Get nosed pierced - Not yet accomplished (NYA) ((Not really for rock-stardom, but more just for fun.))

Step 7. Start writing music - NYA

Step 8. Play music downtown as street musician - NYA (Too cold out.)

Step 9. Post original music on Facebook, MySpace, YouTube - NYA

Step 10. Ask around at coffee shops and little quiet restaurants if I can play live. (I know people who do this!)

Step 11. Keep at all of the above until I begin getting noticed. Then, go for the throat, and grab that rock-stardom and bring it down. Gotta keep trying, eventually, if I work hard enough, its got to happen. 

Kate Nash -- Thank you for all your inspiration. 

Just for Today...

I already posted this on my Facebook, but I really liked it so I decided to post it on here too.

Early in the morning of January 1st, my mom and I sat at the kitchen table, busying ourselves with newspaper comics and chewing our cereal, when my mom stumbled upon a 'Dear Abby' excerpt that she thought really would relate to my life. I read it, and indeed, it did. It isn't an actual letter written by someone to Abby, but just a little something that was in that general 'Dear Abby' corner of the paper. I almost feel like perhaps.. It was written just for me...?

Just for Today: I will live through this day only. I will not brood about yesterday or obsess about tomorrow. I will not set far-reaching goals or try to overcome all of my problems at once. I know that I can do something for 24 hours that would overwhelm me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.

Just for Today: I will be happy. I will not dwell on thoughts that depress me. If my mind fills with cloluds, I will chase them away and fill it with sunshine.

Just for Today: I will accept what is. I will face reality. I will correct those things that I can correct and accept those I cannot.

Just for Today: I will improve my mind. I will read something that requires effort, thought, and concentration. I will not be a mental loafer.

Just for Today: I will make a conscious effort to be agreeable. I will be kind and courteous to those who cross my path, and I'll not speak ill of others. I will improve my appearance, speak softly, and not interrupt when someone else is talking. Just for today, I will refrain from improving anybody but myself.

Just for Today: I will do something positive to improve my health. If I'm a smoker, I'll quit. If I am overweight, I will eat healthfully -- If only just for today. And not only that, I will get off the couch and take a brisk walk, even if it's only around the block.

Just for Today: I will gather the courage to do what is right and take responsibility for my own actions.

I guess I can call these bold things my new years resolutions? But, not all at once. I have the whole of 2011 to work on these, and the rest of my life too, while I'm at it.

Happy New Years my dear friends, may it be fruitful and joyous! I hope we all accomplish something brilliant, and I love you all!

Ouch Charlie.... that really hurts!

Have you seen that video, "Charlie Bit Me?" If not look it up. Its on youtube. Its basically a little boy and his baby brother, and the little baby is named Charlie, and the older brother sticks his finger in Charlies mouth and the boy laughs and pulls it out. Then he does it again, as if he didn't learn the first time, except this time Charlie bites down hard and the little boy is actually in pain.

The first time hurt a little, but it didn't learn its lesson, and it just put themself in that situation again, but the next time actually hurt, and it was harder to get out of this one.

Will it be able to get through this. To persevere through? Will I be able to get through this?

Words hurt.