Ever So Confused!

I whip out my phone.
I must tell my friend that something funny has happened.
I scan through my contacts until i reach the name i need.
I press the button.
I begin to type out my message.
But then I remember,
What happened yesterday.
At the mountain.
That awkward conversation.
Just normally talking.
Then a statement that hurt.
Not a bad pain.
Just like a tiny sliver that sticks out.
But its enough to hurt,
When it is sent by one of your best friends.
The conversation just ends with,
"Oh thats unfortunate for you."
"Yepp."
"Sorry about that."
"Yeah..."
And it ends there.
Now its today.
I text her.
But theres no response.
Later i try again.
Nothing.
Again?
Zip.
Eventually I confront the problem striaght up.
But that is after people are telling me that they have been texting back and forth.
Still nothing.
Is her phone dead?
Am I being ignored?
Why is there this tension between friends?
Oh please not again.
I could not go through this again.
Not after the Fall and Winter.
Back home things arent any better.
I go back next weekend.
But I dont know who I will see.
I know I will see the people.
But I don't know if I will really see them, or just shadows of what they were.
Its all changed.
Its all different.
I doesn't need to be.
But one bad choice changed it all.
I am out of the loop.
At the sleepovers.
They converse about people who i have never heard of.
At their school.
And I try and tell them about my friends, that they have never met.
Its like an invisible wall blockaded between us.
We can only really talk about past memories.
And memories can run out.
We can just keep talking about them.
But nothing new has happened.
And now bad memories are attacking and slaughtering the good ones.
Because of that one single bad choice.
Everything will be different when I go back.
And school tomorrow.
How will i confront my friend.
Who hasn't responded.
That doesn't make them a bad person.
No, not at all.
It just leaves me wondering.
What have I done?
I don't recall saying anything offensive.
Am I just too immature for her taste?
Since when was there a race?
Does she want to get wrinkles first?
Too me, i would pass.
I dont see the rush to grow up.
I think.
And think.
But I cant think of anything that i have done.
So i sit in silence.
Staring at my phone.
Nothing.

Josephine!!!

Josephines here! She is the foriegn exchange student that we are hosting for 3 weeks! She came on sunday night and just to let you know, shes AMAZING! Her accent is brilliant, and she speaks very good english! In P.E class today, we were playing Badmitton, and she was REALLY good! And then I was also playing with Riley, Micaela, and Nicole too, and we were laughing a lot! And now Micaela and I, well we are always battling to see who can get out first, since we are playing it rotatingly. Ohh, good word... :D But it was the best P.E class ever! My foot hurt really bad from doing some radical ninja moves down 7 stairs last week, and it still hurts and I might have to go to the doctor! MEH! But I was able to get around my foot and still have a great time! Best class ever! Besides theater arts. Thats a prettttty great class due to the awesome people that are in it! (And their nose blowing dancers... cough cough... you know who you are!!!) WOOT OWOT! But sadly I only have 2 good classes out of all 6 of them. The stupid classes are Math (GAG! Thanks Maya and Annie for rescuing me!!!) and Science, which can be fun, but it depends on the experiment. And then I have history, and there are some fun people in that class (Thea, Hayley, and Maya!!) and we all have a great time calling my History teacher who just grew a beard, "Beardy, Ryan from the Office, or Dundledort, which he thought was Voldemort cause we called him that once too, but he mixed Dumbledore and Voldemort together. I quite like the name Dundledort! Its fun to say! Hahahaha! YAY! Five more minutes of class! Oh yeah, and I have stupid Freshman Acadamy too! Oh YAY, lets learn about TYPING! My FAVORITE subject. Shoot me. This friday the whole lot of my friends and I and Josephine are all going Roller Blading and I am really excited too! Although I will probably fall on my rear a lot. I'll just wear a pillow maybe. Unless Freddy comes. Then I wont. But I don't think he is coming. Loser. Probably scared he will fall on HIS rear. That'd be great. HA. HA. HA. And then Wednesday, we are all coming back to my house then going to the Mr. Thunder pagent, and I am realllly excited for that because I saw the boys dance at the Battle of the Sexes assembly. Ohhh and I had the most amazing conversation via texting with my great friend Kaitlin. I would just call that texting conversation, "Experimentation." If only you could see those texts. I was gonna die laughing. And we were on opposite sides of town. AHHAAHHA.