Such and such.

I was in the school talent show last night -- My friend Brian McGinnis and I did the song Lucky by Jason Mraz on guitar. It was great, we practiced a lot. Our voices sounded fantastic, and other than the fact that the Tech Crew screwed up the amp before we went on, it wasn't bad. Happy March also!

I'm going to be a rockstar, no doubt about it. Last night I got this feel when I was onstage that was just this amazing adrenaline rush, yet nervous, and anxious, but altogether it was great, and I want that again. I've tried twice now to form bands, first one never even got together once, second one.. Well, we're still together, but we don't know what we're doing. So I decided that I am just going to write my own songs, and then see if I can play in coffee shops downtown and stuff, and play those for now. Also, my two musical idols, Kate Nash and Lily Allen both got famous by posting the songs they wrote on myspace. Producers heard them, and wanted to get them recorded. And so on. Now their famous. I'm thinking I'll just post some stuff around Facebook, I'm not much of a MySpace person, but I've got an ancient account, so I'll post some stuff on there too when I eventually write something. Its a start. I'm taking a Guitar class write now, which is also a song-writing class, so theres another step in the direction of being a Rockstar. Also, I'm taking voice lessons also, so that I can get a wider range and a stronger voice. I've got to be able to belt it out good and strong if I'm going to be famous, right? One day. I can't wait.

I just thought of something, what if 10 years from now I look back on this post (if I'm famous) and I think, wow, I totally achieved my dream! I would be so proud. I want everyone to get their dream! That would be great. I'm constantly lost in my daydreams of performing on a big stage, all this amazing music. I've also sort of learned how to play Piano lately, and I recently learned Ukulele also! I plan on learning Trumpet soon, hopefully Banjo, Saxophone, and Violin also. I love instruments. Oh and Bass. I want to learn Bass. I would say Drums too, but those are just SO big and difficult to transport.

Last weekend I saw the Justin Bieber movie with my friend Danii. Before you go and laugh at me, let me tell you, he worked extremely hard to get where he is today. Do you laugh at me because I'm trying to achieve my dream? It was inspiring actually. It gave me ideas of other ways to get my music out there for people to discover. His voice isn't fake either. He can sing very, very well even without the help of a studio like a lot of modern day pop singers. He is actually talented. Just because his voice hasn't fully matured and he has that dumb feathery haircut, and nearly every girl between the ages of 3-17 swoons at the sight of him, doesn't mean he's a totally freak. He's not bad. Give the whole "Lets make fun of Justin Bieber and we can be cool" thing a rest, okay? You don't have to like him, but you also don't have to make fun of him to be 'cool.' Its rude.

Ponders.

You know how you can ponder something, and that is called pondering? Like pondering your thoughts. Well, I think that a collection of thoughts should be called 'Ponders.' So, here are some recent ponders.

This week is extremely long. Also short. Its already Thursday, and it was just Monday. BUT, so much has happened in this one week, that when I go back and think about it, it almost makes me want to clonk myself on the head and knock myself out. I don't like thinking about how much has gone on. What is it with high school and drama? And friends? And not knowing what to do, until you get so confused and frustrated and angry and sad that you can't even function, and you spend the whole school day just doodling in the back of your notebooks? There is only one plus to that. And that is that some pretty great doodles come from it. Thats it. No body likes being 'confrangrad.' Thats a mix of confused, frustrated, angry and sad all mixed (Pronounced 'Con-frang-rad'). Nobody likes that.

In my opinion, High School can be AWESOME, but also, the most lamest thing ever invented. Most guys just get so full of themselves, with their pants down to their mid-calves, and their t-shirts that would be big on Andre the Giant. And those hats that sit HIGH above their foreheads. Whats up with those? C'mon?! And the girls, goodness gracious!! Honestly, its ridiculous how much we care about what we say, what we wear, who we date, who we're friends with, what kind of music you listen too, how much of one subject you should talk about before it becomes obnoxious (i.e Harry Potter, Kate Nash, Britain), how long we should consider what we say to someone before we actually say it, even though when the time comes, we usually forget what we were going to say, and just improv it. I mean, this can get inCREDibly stressful!

Lately, I've been so stressed (Not for just the above posted reasons, others too) that I have been constantly felt sick. For over a month now! Its not actually anything, but its been bringing me down, and keeping me from getting good sleep, and I'm not even eating as much because I've lost appetite. That is BAD, for Kate Kennedy. Food is my favorite thing, and when I don't have the appetite to eat it, it really can bring down a day. Or when I stay up until 2 am cringing with stomach pains. Thankfully I've been getting better sleep lately, but during the day, things get unpleasant.

I think that the most stressful thing in my life right now is how much I think. I think way to much about what to say to a few people in my life, and what not to say, and what I definitely shouldn't say so I don't get teased, and that really is exhausting. Also, I have to think of what to say to friends. Not all of them of course. I'm not one to fuss over clothes and hair and makeup and what kind of music I listen to very much, so that's good. Besides, everyone knows what kind of music I listen to already. KATE NASH. Also others, but she's my favorite British Buddy. The only thing I really spend my time thinking and stressing over is how to talk to people. Especially adults. I don't ever want to be offensive, and I try to be funny sometimes, and I just have to figure out peoples senses of humor, and if they have one, or if they're sense of humor is just teasing me for what I say. I hate that mostly. It makes me feel like crap. Sure, sarcasm is GREAT. I use it ALL the time, but there is definitely a point where it goes way too far, and thats when it can really make a person feel awful, especially if it comes from an adult you respect and look up too. Even just an adult. It just sucks.

Wow. I kinda poured a lot of crap out into that post.. Sorry about that. I'm debating just deleting it, but it felt great getting it all out. Good luck in your daily lives everyone, I'll post again soon. Maybe later today. Its nice to have my fingers fly across the keyboard letting out every word I can think of. Thanks for following and reading. Love you all!

Decisions, decisions...

First off, it is incredibly frustrating to have a horribly itchy back, and try and focus on typing at the same time. Unfortunately, I gave my back scratcher to my friend Kaitlin. Therefore, I cannot scratch my back now, and it will remain itchy. Someone hand me a fork.

Alright. So, secondly, lets celebrate! 1. Its the Christmas Holidays! Thanksgiving just ended, now lets bring on Hanukkah, where I get to be jew-ish. HAHA! Get it? Coming up is the actual CHRISTMAS itself! Oh goodie! Happy birthday Jesus! 2. We have made it to a GRAND total of (drumroll.......) TEN WHOLE FOLLOWERS! What? Can it be! YES! It's true! Lets please get more though.

Uhm, shout out also to the Magnificent Person Of the Month (MPOM): This award is something I would like to start giving out once a month to a lovely person in my life (who know's how often I will actually remember to do that! We saw what happened with the 'word of the day.' Yeah, that happend twice. Lame.), and this fine December's award goes to the wonderful Kate Plotner! Ah yes! Another Kate! Although this mention should probably be extended from the first of November to now, because, yes, this fine lady was the driver to Portland to see the stunning Kate Nash, YES! yet, ANOTHER Kate! We are just awesome, might I add. I still daydream about that concert, and its been over a month. So great.... Anyway, Congratulations Kate Plotner! I doubt you read this! So I guess you won't really know... Shame.. But you won, good job!

Now to the actual point of the title, Decisions, decisions. I want to change the name of this blog, since I am not really writing much about pranks anymore. Its horrible, I know. But I just don't get as many opportunities now. And the people I really do want to prank, are just to slick, and get me first. I don't know what to change it too. Maybe I will set up a poll. Yes, that is what I will do! Great idea! I think I will now give myself a pat on the back. Oh, but it is still so itchy. Darn.

KATE NASH!

Two weeks ago I bought tickets to go to a Kate Nash concert in Portland. I've been nearly jumping out of my skin in excitement since then. Last night, I finally got to go! I went with some of my favorite people in the world! Kaitlin, KP, and Maya. It was the best girls Monday night out ever. We left school at 2:45, and drove to Portland. It was beautiful and high deserty the first half of the drive there, then suddenly we hit the valley. Trees popped up, and suddenly the rain was POURING. Hydroplating, trucks washing giant waves on us, and water was all over the place! Thankfully we finally made it to Portland after a long, and quite entertaining drive. There was one stoplight in Portland that we think may have been broken, because we sat there for what felt like hours! Soon enough, we made it to Nicolas's Lebanese food, chowed down on a pita as big as a large pizza, and ate many other fascinating things, like spinach somethings, and hummus, and this other thing.. Descriptive, I know. During dinner, KP looked at us and said, "Oh, and by the way we are staying in a hotel tonight," just as if it was as normal as "Go clean the kitchen Kate." That made us QUITE excited as I am sure you can imagine! Then, we were off to the glorious and magnificent WONDER BALLROOM! We arrived, found Danii, my wonderful friend from back in McMinnville, an original Odd Squadrian, and dug our way thru the crowd, searching for a great spot close to the stage. Eventually we found one in the far left corner. I didn't think it would be all that good of a spot at first.... Until Kate Nash came out on stage and started singing.... SEVEN FEET AWAY. She was AMAZING. SPECTACULAR! FABULOUS! BRILLIANT! TREMENDOUS! EXPLOSIVELY AWESOME! The whole concert was amazing, from the first loud song, "I Just Love You More" to the amazing last song "Pumpkin Soup!" Even the terrifying "Mansion Song" was performed brilliantly too, despite the freakish amount of vulgar and LOUD swearing. But hey, it's Kate Nash. She's awesome! Before she came on, a new British band, Peggy Sue, opened for her. I thought they were absolutely marvelous! Their songs were catchy and upbeat, with many different drum beats, an accordion, and some beautiful guitars! Immediately following the concert, I purchased an adorable, but far too large Kate Nash tee shirt with a bunny on it, and a copy of Peggy Sue's CD - Fossils and Other Phantoms - A high recommendation on my part. The CD was autographed by all three members of the band, and we talked, and it took all my self control not to start talking in a British accent myself. Their accents just rolled off their tongues so beautifully! After the concert, we drove down to VooDoo donuts, and bought ourselves some of the most delicious donuts I've ever tasted! I got a tiny voodoo doll shaped donut, and its always terribly heartbreaking when you have to bite the head off an edible food item that has animal or human characteristics. Soon, all of us being wiped out and knowing that yes, there was school the following morning, and it was three hours away, we drove to the lovely Red Lion hotel, where we exhaustedly lugged in our bags and suitcases and Lebanese food remains into the room. Room 240 I believe. The next morning we woke up at a hearty 5 Am, got together our things, and drove to a little cafe to buy coffee and croissants. These we enjoyed on the way out of Portland, and so began the long, tiring ride home. What a night.

Goals and Goodies!

Ok, so I've been swerving every which way lately, and I decided that I want to get everything in order.

My goals:
> Get my liscense!
> Apply for an Art School
> Raise enough money to pay for gas to go to the Kate Nash concert
> Get better grades
> Get organized
> Participate in NaNoWriMo this year and reach the 50,000 word point
> Move to our own house
(Keep in mind these are long term also.)

My goodies:
> Possibly moving?
> Kate Nash concert (Another possibility)
> Art Schools?
> Taking a class at PoetHouse! (Portfolio Design)


I really need to figure out some ways to raise money. I can only think of babysitting. Any ideas?