Broken?

So, two nights ago I was at a fantastic birthday party, and everyone was dancing to music, and it was so funny and just awesome. I was doing the movie where its like you're pulling something and walking in place but raising your knee up and putting it back down with a lot of force. Out of absolutely NO WHERE my knee just gives out. I can feel it go 'pop, pop, pop' three times. Immediately I crumple to the ground. Then I feel it pop back. And the pain is awful. Not at first, but it builds up. And fast too. Nobody really saw what happened at first, and no one thought anything had happened, so I just tried to crawl on the couch. It was so gross, by straightening my leg all the way to where it would 'lock,' I could feel it pop. It was nasty. I am very squeamish. My best friend Kaitlin's brother Jake, was sitting on the other side of the couch and saw me tearing up and holding my knee. Kaitlin saw too. I personally find it kind of funny that the kids noticed something was wrong before any adults. So Jake goes and gets me a massive bag of ice (Like, bigger than my head massive, and I don't exactly have a small head) and Kaitlin is comforting me also. So the host sees that something is wrong, and gets his friend who has some medical experience with bones. He feels my knee, and let me tell you, it was so swollen and fat. You couldn't see it cause I was wearing jeans, but you sure could feel it. So we thought that I dislocated it, but it just went back into place, and the pain I was feeling was swollen bubbles under the skin, and by flexing and pulling back my leg, I could pop these bubbles. The popping I kept feeling when I extended my knee was actually bubble popping said the doctor guy. I was so relieved to know that nothing was too wrong. But boy did those bubbles under there hurt! So eventually KP loaded me into her car and Kaitlin, Jake, Joshua, me, and KP all went home. I gimped over to the couch, we elevated my knee, and put more ice on it. I fell asleep pretty fast, but I left the ice on when I fell asleep. I woke up around 1:30 and had to gimp over to the bathroom, get out of jeans, and into shorts. I was amazed to actually see my knee. This thing was HUGE. It made my other knee look like a little toothpick next to a redwood tree. It was amazingly huge. So I got back to the couch, put the ice on, and fell asleep again. I woke up again at 4 and my leg felt on FIRE. Not from my actual knee, but the skin did. It was burning! I took the ice off and turns out, by leaving ice on for hours on end on bare skin, you get an ice burn. Its so cold that it burns. And you can't escape it when you can't walk to get anything, and everyone else in the house is asleep. So, I just try and ignore it. Eventually I fall asleep again, and don't wake up till about 8. I go to the doctors at 9, and surprisingly, we didn't have to wait that long. We got into a room within 10 minutes, and I get to sit in the wheelchair I always wanted to be in! Only, then I wished that I could be anywhere BUT that wheelchair. So we get into the little room, and I get these really nice nurses and doctors and x ray ladies, and so it just made the experience better. So they were feeling my knee, and seeing if they could tell what had happened just by feeing. Eventually I went to get an x ray, but it hurt and grossed me out to extend my leg all the way, so they gave me a shot in my butt that would make it so I wouldn't feel the extension as much. The shot made everything loopy and move in slow motion. My eyes moved to look at something, but the rest of the scene had to catch up. So I went to the x ray room, and we took some x rays, and the lady was stern, but there was a sense of humor there so that was good. Later, after the doctors had examined the x rays, they came in and told us what had been going on. Now remember what I mentioned up above farther. I am a very squeamish person. VERY. So they start telling me "oh yeah, so you dislocated your kneecap, and it went allllll the way over there, and on its way back to where its supposed to be, it broke the end of your femur off and now that piece of bone is just floating iin there and your kneecap didn't make it all the way back to your knee." Picture me. According to my mom, my face just drained of all color 'till it was pasty. I felt so sick. And I started seeing black spots and I was about to pass out. To the point where the nurses had to put cool paper towels on my neck and forehead and I had to put my head between my knees. It was so weird! So eventually I felt good enough to get out of my wheelchair and onto the examining table. I put in my headphones to my iPod so that I wouldn't hear anymore gross doctor talk. They put a little shot in my knee to numb it before the big huge shot. That made it much better. Then the doctor popped my kneecap into place completely. Well, almost completely. I still can sometimes feel it pop a teensy bit, and that is absolutely disgusting. But that is only if I lock it. So I avoid that. Then they ace bandage me up, and put on a GIGANTIC leg brace/splint. It goes from just above my ankle, to half way up my thigh. Its huge. It keeps my knee from bending. So that the kneecap stays there and heals back in there. No wonder my knee hurt so bad that night. I broke it. Who breaks their knee? Only I could do that. By dancing, a harmless dance. I wasn't even twisting my legs or anything! It just randomly gave out. It was so weird! I felt bad, like a total party pooper. And then asking for so many things since I couldn't get up to do them myself. See, I am not the most flexible (not physically, but like mentally) person, and I'm very independent and don't like it when people are constantly doing things for me. I just end up feeling really bad! I think that I broke my knee so that I could learn to actually let people help me, and to learn to be more flexible. This is going to be a long few months. I'm just SO glad that this is starting right before the school year. Right before ski season (it starts in like 3 or 4 months) and if I'm lucky I will heal before that. I won't get to swim anymore this summer. Or bike. Or even walk. I got what I always wanted. Crutches. I don't want them anymore. Also, why do I always break the biggest bones in my body? Last time it was my Humorous (that big bone in your upper arm) and now my femur (that big bone in your upper leg)! This is ridiculous!

OK, this is embarrassing.

Well, I just really want to get on Facebook, cause I've got nothing to do. I can't even play guitar cause everyone is sleeping. :( So, I decided I would limit myself, to only checking it in the evenings, rather than staying on it all day. Only once in the evenings is not a bad habit. I think this will be a better challenge to take on. :/

Surfing?

I had the strangest dream last night! I learned to surf! I was swimming in the water to swim to my board, and a big wave came, and so I dunked under the water, and I was scared a little bit cause I couldn't touch the bottom and I was in the ocean and I was scared about sharks, but then the wave passed, and I saw another one building up, so I climbed on my board, but I couldn't stand up on it, so instead I just sat on it like I was riding a horse and tried to not fall off as I rode this insanely huge wave to shore. When I got to shore, my dad pulled me out of the waves, and we were laughing about how stupid I looked riding the surfboard over the waves and screaming, but then we were panicking cause we couldn't find my wedding veil, and I didn't know anything about a wedding, but I guess I had a veil, and I remembered that the veil is a very important part, but then we found it only slightly tattered against some rocks. I think I went out a few other times, but when I woke up, and for the whole day, I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Now I really just want to go surf! There's only a few problems with that though... I live 5 hours away from the coast, and I lack something important.. an actual surfboard. And I've got a bit of a fear of sharks... seeing as they usually tear things apart and are meanies. So... with that, I guess I won't be surfing anytime soon. :| Dang.

Day 3 - No Facebook.

Its starting to get difficult. Its not just the boredom thats killing me over here, its the thought that what if someone needs to get ahold of me for an event or something, or important information and don't have my email or phone number? I feel like I am kind of disconnected from the rest of the world... Anyways.

Today, without Facebook, I did:

Spent the morning with my friend Kaitlin
Spent the afternoon with my friend Maya
Practiced guitar
Skyped a lot
Took a shower
Watched Moonstruck
Caught a mouse (ick!)
Got invited to a party

And now I am blogging. So what a jam-packed day! All facebook free! Its so nice, even though its difficult not to stray to it.

I'm really proud! I had a bad addiction to it! Its easy to stay away from Facebook if you are camping, or away from civilization and electronics for awhile, but, when you are just sitting at home, bored to tears, and your computer is just sitting there, its REALLY difficult. But quite satisfying knowing another day has gone by and I didn't get on! I encourage other people to try this challenge!

Facebook - Buh Bye!

I find myself having a bit of a Facebook addiction, and its sucking away all my creativity, so I am seeing how long I can go without it. Today was Day 1!

Day 1 - 8/24/10 at 1:30 pm.

Lets see how long I can go without it. It's been very difficult today. I've found myself bored multiple times. Rather than retreating to Facebook 'real quick,' I built a fort with my brother, adventured to a concert for Clear 101.7, played guitar, watched Coraline and a lot of The Office, cleaned the house, and put an offer on a new house we may get! Big day, and all spent without Facebook.

Let me clarify, that my real start of this was yesterday, 8/23/10 at 10:03 pm. I only got on today to set my status as something like "Kate Kennedy... is seeing how long she can go without Facebook. Goodbye." and to wish a friend Happy Birthday. Now, I am gone for good. Well, as long as I can go. I took it off my bookmarks, off my iPod, and blocked email/iPod notifications. I am off the radar. So long!

Adventure!

So tonight, late, about 9:10 pm, my brother Sam and I heard music from our house. It was distant, but hearable. At first it sounded like music coming from a house down the street, and we thought someone was having a party. Then my dad said, 'No, thats coming from a concert down at Old Mill.' So then we drove down to Old Mill to check it out. When we got there, we heard absolutely nothing. It was silent. But we saw a lot of cars driving away, so naturally, we thought the concert had just ended and people were leaving. So we drove home, and we heard the music again. So I said, "Yeah, I think it is a party." and then my mom said "Maybe it is coming from Cascade (the middle school by our house)." and she told us to go walk down there and check it out if we wanted. So we started walking. Now, to get to cascade from our house is about 10 minutes. So we got there... and it was dark, and sorta creepy, and nothing was going on at all. But we definitely heard the music louder. So we kept walking. We hopped this tall fence, and started walking through all this land. Past Cascade, then Past 7 Peaks (Another middle school) and we did some trail creating of our own. We leaped over sagebrush, got poked by a lot of prickles, climbed a few more fences, crossed a unknown busy street, that in daylight I probably would know. Then we finally heard the music loud and saw lights. And a stage. But in the distant. We slid down this big dusty hill, and finally got there. Standing in the parking lot, I realized where we were - The Bend Athletic Center - about a 20 - 25 minute walk from our house if you count all the bush whacking and trail making. Everyone was leaving, right as we got there the concert ended. There must have been 300 people there. I think it may have been a paid concert, so when we saw a gate open, and no one gaurding, we snuck in. There was this one guard there that was looking at us like we were young ruffians and didn't belong there. Out of no where, my brother says just loudly enough for the guard to hear, "Mom? Dad? Where are you guys?!" and I was just dumbfounded. He thought of that by himself! I always thought him to be a goody two shoes, but his rebellious side just shined. I am so proud of him! He's learning well. :) So we get past the guard, and into the concert, and there is a LOT of litter on the ground, and a big stage with lights and such all over it, and it was so cool! Then we left to go home after about 5 minutes of exploring. We took a different route, but it was pretty adventuresome also! Keep in mind, all of this is being done in the black of night! So it was creepy just climbing through unknown forest! AHH!