Broken?

So, two nights ago I was at a fantastic birthday party, and everyone was dancing to music, and it was so funny and just awesome. I was doing the movie where its like you're pulling something and walking in place but raising your knee up and putting it back down with a lot of force. Out of absolutely NO WHERE my knee just gives out. I can feel it go 'pop, pop, pop' three times. Immediately I crumple to the ground. Then I feel it pop back. And the pain is awful. Not at first, but it builds up. And fast too. Nobody really saw what happened at first, and no one thought anything had happened, so I just tried to crawl on the couch. It was so gross, by straightening my leg all the way to where it would 'lock,' I could feel it pop. It was nasty. I am very squeamish. My best friend Kaitlin's brother Jake, was sitting on the other side of the couch and saw me tearing up and holding my knee. Kaitlin saw too. I personally find it kind of funny that the kids noticed something was wrong before any adults. So Jake goes and gets me a massive bag of ice (Like, bigger than my head massive, and I don't exactly have a small head) and Kaitlin is comforting me also. So the host sees that something is wrong, and gets his friend who has some medical experience with bones. He feels my knee, and let me tell you, it was so swollen and fat. You couldn't see it cause I was wearing jeans, but you sure could feel it. So we thought that I dislocated it, but it just went back into place, and the pain I was feeling was swollen bubbles under the skin, and by flexing and pulling back my leg, I could pop these bubbles. The popping I kept feeling when I extended my knee was actually bubble popping said the doctor guy. I was so relieved to know that nothing was too wrong. But boy did those bubbles under there hurt! So eventually KP loaded me into her car and Kaitlin, Jake, Joshua, me, and KP all went home. I gimped over to the couch, we elevated my knee, and put more ice on it. I fell asleep pretty fast, but I left the ice on when I fell asleep. I woke up around 1:30 and had to gimp over to the bathroom, get out of jeans, and into shorts. I was amazed to actually see my knee. This thing was HUGE. It made my other knee look like a little toothpick next to a redwood tree. It was amazingly huge. So I got back to the couch, put the ice on, and fell asleep again. I woke up again at 4 and my leg felt on FIRE. Not from my actual knee, but the skin did. It was burning! I took the ice off and turns out, by leaving ice on for hours on end on bare skin, you get an ice burn. Its so cold that it burns. And you can't escape it when you can't walk to get anything, and everyone else in the house is asleep. So, I just try and ignore it. Eventually I fall asleep again, and don't wake up till about 8. I go to the doctors at 9, and surprisingly, we didn't have to wait that long. We got into a room within 10 minutes, and I get to sit in the wheelchair I always wanted to be in! Only, then I wished that I could be anywhere BUT that wheelchair. So we get into the little room, and I get these really nice nurses and doctors and x ray ladies, and so it just made the experience better. So they were feeling my knee, and seeing if they could tell what had happened just by feeing. Eventually I went to get an x ray, but it hurt and grossed me out to extend my leg all the way, so they gave me a shot in my butt that would make it so I wouldn't feel the extension as much. The shot made everything loopy and move in slow motion. My eyes moved to look at something, but the rest of the scene had to catch up. So I went to the x ray room, and we took some x rays, and the lady was stern, but there was a sense of humor there so that was good. Later, after the doctors had examined the x rays, they came in and told us what had been going on. Now remember what I mentioned up above farther. I am a very squeamish person. VERY. So they start telling me "oh yeah, so you dislocated your kneecap, and it went allllll the way over there, and on its way back to where its supposed to be, it broke the end of your femur off and now that piece of bone is just floating iin there and your kneecap didn't make it all the way back to your knee." Picture me. According to my mom, my face just drained of all color 'till it was pasty. I felt so sick. And I started seeing black spots and I was about to pass out. To the point where the nurses had to put cool paper towels on my neck and forehead and I had to put my head between my knees. It was so weird! So eventually I felt good enough to get out of my wheelchair and onto the examining table. I put in my headphones to my iPod so that I wouldn't hear anymore gross doctor talk. They put a little shot in my knee to numb it before the big huge shot. That made it much better. Then the doctor popped my kneecap into place completely. Well, almost completely. I still can sometimes feel it pop a teensy bit, and that is absolutely disgusting. But that is only if I lock it. So I avoid that. Then they ace bandage me up, and put on a GIGANTIC leg brace/splint. It goes from just above my ankle, to half way up my thigh. Its huge. It keeps my knee from bending. So that the kneecap stays there and heals back in there. No wonder my knee hurt so bad that night. I broke it. Who breaks their knee? Only I could do that. By dancing, a harmless dance. I wasn't even twisting my legs or anything! It just randomly gave out. It was so weird! I felt bad, like a total party pooper. And then asking for so many things since I couldn't get up to do them myself. See, I am not the most flexible (not physically, but like mentally) person, and I'm very independent and don't like it when people are constantly doing things for me. I just end up feeling really bad! I think that I broke my knee so that I could learn to actually let people help me, and to learn to be more flexible. This is going to be a long few months. I'm just SO glad that this is starting right before the school year. Right before ski season (it starts in like 3 or 4 months) and if I'm lucky I will heal before that. I won't get to swim anymore this summer. Or bike. Or even walk. I got what I always wanted. Crutches. I don't want them anymore. Also, why do I always break the biggest bones in my body? Last time it was my Humorous (that big bone in your upper arm) and now my femur (that big bone in your upper leg)! This is ridiculous!