Biggest Fear

After sixteen years of wondering and questioning what my biggest fear is, whether it be spiders, fire, death, barfing, whatever; I finally figured out what it is.

Sound.

Which is also my favorite thing in the world. So it kind of contradicts itself. Seriously though, think about it. Sounds can be horrifying. If you hear a hiss, you think SNAKE and panic, and maybe pee a little. If in the dead of night you hear a creak, and the bathroom door open, and a family member probably just has to relieve themselves, but in your head you think, oh no, what if they are sick?! and start panicking about that too. Well... I doubt you panic about that, but I sure do. Which makes it a terrifying sound. Or just creaks and squawks of the house at night, and you wonder, burglar, or creep? Or murderer. Or could that gurgley sound be maybe a zombie? You just don't know, do you.

Of course, sounds can also be the most wonderful things in the whole world! Like when you hear the oven beep, and you know, the cookies are ready! Or that jolly Ho Ho Ho of Santa! Or birds chirping. Or MUSIC for crying out loud!

Sometimes I just wish I could be deaf, so that I wouldn't have to think about all those horrible things that are sounds, but then I realize that would mean giving up music, and seeing as music is more important to me than food, or people even, I just don't think that would work out very well.

BUT, you can see where I say its my biggest fear. I hate bad noises. Nails on a chalk board, screeching wheels, screaming, barfing, zombies (Heh), murderers and burglars, etc. They are bad noises. That, is why sound is my biggest fear. But also biggest love.